Huaisang doesn't answer right away. There's many things he's not good enough in. All these years later and finding his own skills hadn't stopped the voice of his brother in his head. He'd never stopped worrying that he is not a good enough Nie, that the changes he wants to make won't be for the better -- but he'd made them anyway. He'd done the things he needed to do as well. But... there's a part of him that still says he's not good enough. But that's not really what he'd been thinking about when he made the comment. He'd said it much more flippantly.

He exhales and he's fanning himself nonchalantly -- or as much as he can be.

"Then I didn't do a good enough job or you would know you wanted more or-- you're just not interested in men. It's easy to pretend a man on his knees sucking cock is a woman. I don't mind if that's what you want."