That had to be rough . . . it's hard not getting caught up in what ifs. Especially when things aren't going great.

[it'd be a lie to say he hasn't - when he got his Vision he thought about what it'd be like if his parents were still there, or if they'd never been kicked out in the first place. But after so long they're just idle thoughts]

It sounds like you got lucky, too. I'm sorry you lost one of them.