[Dohalim lifts his hand up to flick some water at Red Wine; the only retaliation he has against the jest. but as he brings his hand back down into the water, he pulls the other man closer to him, resting his chin on his shoulder. he ponders on the Food Souls' comment, pulling from his own experiences]
It's not proper to show much emotion. People look up to us to be beacons of sophistication and propriety, to be leaders and influences. To show a veneer of class is desirable, and emotions get in the way of that. Emotions can turn ugly, especially in the view of the public's eye. And the more prominent the family, the more those ugly emotions can bring shame and sow doubts about our abilities as leaders.
[he says all of that nonchalantly; it's just the way of life as he knows it. he'd become somewhat of an expert at hiding those emotions as soon as he arrived in Menancia, from the first time he'd heard those screams; he couldn't let the Renans with him know just how weak he was emotionally. he'd hidden behind closed doors, only to emerge from them stone faced and seemingly unaffected. he's sure that if he'd shown his true despair for the Dahnans' suffering and his own trauma, he wouldn't have been able to reform the realm. people follow leaders who are calm and collected, and that's what he gave them, when all he wanted was to lock himself away]
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[Dohalim lifts his hand up to flick some water at Red Wine; the only retaliation he has against the jest. but as he brings his hand back down into the water, he pulls the other man closer to him, resting his chin on his shoulder. he ponders on the Food Souls' comment, pulling from his own experiences]
It's not proper to show much emotion. People look up to us to be beacons of sophistication and propriety, to be leaders and influences. To show a veneer of class is desirable, and emotions get in the way of that. Emotions can turn ugly, especially in the view of the public's eye. And the more prominent the family, the more those ugly emotions can bring shame and sow doubts about our abilities as leaders.
[he says all of that nonchalantly; it's just the way of life as he knows it. he'd become somewhat of an expert at hiding those emotions as soon as he arrived in Menancia, from the first time he'd heard those screams; he couldn't let the Renans with him know just how weak he was emotionally. he'd hidden behind closed doors, only to emerge from them stone faced and seemingly unaffected. he's sure that if he'd shown his true despair for the Dahnans' suffering and his own trauma, he wouldn't have been able to reform the realm. people follow leaders who are calm and collected, and that's what he gave them, when all he wanted was to lock himself away]