"When he came back I explained my feelings and said it was okay if he wanted me to back off. As long as I could just be friends with Xie I was happy. But then he wanted me too for some reason. The three of us ended up together and for a bit it was really good. Until the dinner party where I had my first drink of alcohol for the first time."
Squeezing Wanyin's hand, he let himself draw strength from him. "Turns out Fae are weak to alcohol and I had no idea. I was a mess. You saw me at New Years. Everyone took such good care of me and P'Vegas even called my boyfriends to make sure I'd get home safe. Baiyi came and said I was being an embarrassment then harassed P'Vegas with invasive questions and when P'Vegas tried to leave he used a sort of...magical force to shove him back in the chair. P'Pete broke it up and Baiyi took me home. The next day he went and told me how I wasn't allowed to see others without him or Xie and that he didn't trust my friends. I asked him to trust me even if he couldn't trust them but he just told me he couldn't."
Swallowing, he pushed forward. "We didn't talk for weeks and I refused to stop seeing P'Kinn and the others because they're my family. Then suddenly he took Xie and I to a festival and pretended like nothing happened. When I confronted him, he shattered our bond. Luckily I had my family to take me in and I was okay and I still had Xie. Things were even great with Xie and he would come see me all the time. He protected me when I got cursed and was scared of everything. Then suddenly after one of those visits and sleeping with me he sent me a message out of nowhere and just...ended things. Said that only Baiyi could give him what he needed. Everything I've done for him didn't matter and that bond shattered too."
This time tears did fall but he didn't bother to stop them. Instead he just smiled over at Wanyin. "I had people to help me pull through the really bad times. But I know what it feels like to have people think they can control you and hurt you. I don't want to be anything more than me and free to do that. So if I can give you that too I'd really like to. I think you're very special, Wanyin. It means so much that you even just sit here holding my hand not to mention everything else you've let me have with you."
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Squeezing Wanyin's hand, he let himself draw strength from him. "Turns out Fae are weak to alcohol and I had no idea. I was a mess. You saw me at New Years. Everyone took such good care of me and P'Vegas even called my boyfriends to make sure I'd get home safe. Baiyi came and said I was being an embarrassment then harassed P'Vegas with invasive questions and when P'Vegas tried to leave he used a sort of...magical force to shove him back in the chair. P'Pete broke it up and Baiyi took me home. The next day he went and told me how I wasn't allowed to see others without him or Xie and that he didn't trust my friends. I asked him to trust me even if he couldn't trust them but he just told me he couldn't."
Swallowing, he pushed forward. "We didn't talk for weeks and I refused to stop seeing P'Kinn and the others because they're my family. Then suddenly he took Xie and I to a festival and pretended like nothing happened. When I confronted him, he shattered our bond. Luckily I had my family to take me in and I was okay and I still had Xie. Things were even great with Xie and he would come see me all the time. He protected me when I got cursed and was scared of everything. Then suddenly after one of those visits and sleeping with me he sent me a message out of nowhere and just...ended things. Said that only Baiyi could give him what he needed. Everything I've done for him didn't matter and that bond shattered too."
This time tears did fall but he didn't bother to stop them. Instead he just smiled over at Wanyin. "I had people to help me pull through the really bad times. But I know what it feels like to have people think they can control you and hurt you. I don't want to be anything more than me and free to do that. So if I can give you that too I'd really like to. I think you're very special, Wanyin. It means so much that you even just sit here holding my hand not to mention everything else you've let me have with you."