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⌛ Who: Kaneki & Bakugou (Closed)
⌛ What: Nov event stuff
⌛ When: Sometime in November
⌛ Where: Tokyo
⌛ Warnings: Cursing as always, angst, probably blood, gore imagery, will update as needed.

[Katsuki doesn't believe in shit like wishes, nor does he see the point in them. But since he's there at the makeshift fountain with Ken, coin in hand, he wants to test it out to prove that it won't work because he's petty like that.]

We could take all the coins these idiots left instead.

[He's kidding about his suggestion (probably), but in case he's wrong he settles for the first wish that he thinks of, saying it silently in his mind.

Ken's always cooking for him, even though he can't eat anything that he cooks. He's gone through hell as a ghoul, and even though Katsuki can support him, he knows that the fear of going without food or being found out will always be something Ken has to deal with. He wishes he could take it away-

I wish our situations were reversed.

It's impulsive, stupid, the whole thing is stupid, but then there's no harm, right? He tosses the coin in the water and releases his breath after a moment, looking at Ken.]

Shit's fake.

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Hmm... are you sure? [ katsuki may not believe it, but after everything that has happened and continues to happen, he can't say it's impossible. Wishes may be true, specially in this place and with kizuna magic.

He watches the coin fall into the water before Kaneki smiles and gently elbows his boyfriend playfully ]

What did you wish for? It shouldn't matter if you say it outloud, right? [ since he said it was all fake ]

I'm Plus Ultra sure. [Bakugou says with an edge of sarcasm, rolling his eyes. What does he mean, is he sure?

Okay, maybe kizuna exists and does a bunch of weird shit, but there's no way this would work. He scoffs and pretends to shove Ken, before pulling him back to his side and trying to steer him away as he walks off. He doesn't really want to be around that fountain any longer than he has to. The whole idea was...it was stupid, anyway.]

You're right, it doesn't matter. I wished for something random, ain't like it's going to work anyway so don't worry about it.

[ kaneki follows suit. He didn't try the fountain himself, mostly because Kaneki's wishes are not something that can be fulfilled, in the end.

Maybe he should have wished for something easy just to check it out, but that's too late now since he follows Katsuki instead.

He hums at his lover's answer before kaneki smirks just a little ] What, is it embarrassing?

N-no! Like hell I'd wish for somethin' embarrassing!

[Bakugou shouts loudly, but his blushing says otherwise.

Ken is the only one who he lets get away with teasing him, but he narrows his eyes and suddenly smirks at him, deciding to get revenge.]

Fine. I wanted to spare ya, but I wished for you to wear a leather c-

[He suddenly freezes and stops talking. Ken's neckline always look good to Katsuki, but this is...

This is different. He looks delicious, skin soft and supple, and if he leans in close enough he's pretty sure he can see his pulse. He's alive, and he probably tastes-

With a strangled sound, Katsuki stumbles back in alarm, his body hot with sweat.]

W...what.

[ ah, of course he would bring up something like that! kaneki gasps a little, ready to reach for his lover's face so he wouldn't say that out loud, but when katsuki stops, so does Kaneki.

He looks back at him, confused ] Are you alright?

[Katsuki's face is pale as he stares at Ken, mouth slightly open. But the question has him snap out of it and quickly grunt his response.]

I'm fine.

[But he doesn't feel fine. He tears his eyes away from Ken, because all he can think about is what would he look like, if he started peeling him away? What would his organs taste like, his bone marrow?

He has to be imagining things. There's no way it worked. But he keeps his hands at his sides as he nods at him, keeping his gaze averted.]

Let's go home.

[He's sure this will pass.]

[ no, he absolutely doesn't look fine. Kaneki's face twists into a worried frown as he watches the other, and the suggestion to go home seems perfect right now.

they can talk about whatever is going on there, much better than in the middle of the street ]

Yes, let's go. [ kaneki heads to their place, always keeping at eye on Katsuki. He is acting weird, that's for sure. Did he eat one of the weird plants - the uki one, for example? ]

[As they walk home, Bakugou keeps staring at people. He can't help but size them up, imagining how they taste-

That human man is too lean, but maybe that girl over there shopping and completely in her own world. He'd rather eat a stranger than his boyfriend-

No. Fuck. He's not eating anyone. He doesn't even tease Ken or flirt with him on the way back. As soon as they get to their place, Katsuki practically slams the door shut, keeping his face turned away. He doesn't move, because he's scared if he does he'll go straight for him.]

Ken... I need to go and do some shit. You stay here.

[ kaneki, however, isn't ready to do as told. He crosses his arms, his frown more obvious ]

No. Tell me what is going on. [ he would rather not be kept in the dark, he is tired of that sort of thing, after what happened with Shigaraki and the League of Villains ]

[He can hear his unhappiness in his voice, and Katsuki probably deserves it. After all, he made that impulsive wish-

What if it's permanent? Katsuki's eyes widen, but he still doesn't look at Ken.]

I shouldn't have made that wish-

[Fuck, he can even smell him from here and he smells like the best meal ever. Better than anything Katsuki has ever cooked.]

[ the wish?

Kaneki is silent for a second, as if trying to figure out on his own what is happening, but he can't, not without an explanation ]

What did you wish for?

Ken-

[He sounds beautiful too. Melodic. Eating him wouldn't be a mere meal, it would be an experience. Bakugou finally looks at him. Maybe just a bite? He has enough self-discipline.

His legs don't feel like they belong to him as they pull him forward, and it's then that his left sclera darkens until it's black, his already red iris brightening.]

You've always been fucking breathtaking...

[ His question is answered the worst way possible. When he sees Katsuki's eye turning, alarm bells go off immediately.

He wished to become a ghoul?!

Eyes go wide and immediately Kaneki's instincts kick in, getting him to step away from Katsuki further. No matter if this is Katsuki, he knows that look, he knows those words, the knows all of those reactions; he did them, before himself while he looked at his best friend. This is hunger.

But that's when he realizes something is very wrong. He can't pull out his Kagune. Which should be fine, Ken ate recently, he should be okay, he should be able to do that much-- nothing happens, though. And slowly Kaneki realizes how things are actually very different: he can't smell Katski. He can't smell the normal horrid smells that come from non-human things, and even the smell of coffee that still fills up his house is so faint. He can't ear outside and the chit-chat from his neighbors either, the people passing by on the street that Kaneki became so used to, all thanks to ghoul's heighten senses. ]

Katsuki... what did you do? [ softly spoken, as if facing a crazed animal. Even Kaneki's movements are slow and quiet, almost as if trying not to be noticed while he continues to give small steps backwards ]

[Focusing on what Ken is asking him is like trying to tread through quicksand in a a hurricane. He doesn't want to talk or answer him, but focusing on his voice is the only thing that's keeping Katsuki from devouring Ken right then and there. All of his senses are set off, and he can smell food everywhere, people close enough by to eat, but he only wants Ken. His voice doesn't feel like his own as he smiles at him- why is he smiling? To reassure him and make it easier?]

I wished for our situations to be reversed. I was fucking around, I didn't think it would work. That means you can eat, Ken-chi...but I don't wanna wait that long. I only want you.

[Even as he talks, he keeps approaching Ken. One moment, he's on the other side of the room, the next he's in front of him, and he can feel it, his kagune thrashing out and hitting the walls and furniture, glistening in the sun that manages to filter through the windows. Cupping Ken's face tenderly in his hands, he leans down to inhale his scent, his movements gentle and loving and not as if he wants to bite into him and never stop. Holy shit. Is this what Ken feels? It's unbearable.]

I want to eat you, Ken, and I don't know if I can stop... So listen to me. Run.

[ it doesn't work like that. Kaneki knows because he tried to run from a hungry ghoul before, too. In fact, everything about this reminds him of the night he was almost eaten by Rize, how she looked at him, how she had every intention of devouring him.

Situations to be reversed means Kaneki is now a human.

There is no way for him to survive this by running. It doesn't work like that. The moment Kaneki tries to run it will ignite Katsuki's ghoul instincts, like a cat who just saw a bug move. He can't run.

But there are few things he does know because he lived through them. He knows what is like to be a ghoul, and while he knows Katsuki's hunger will only get worse until it drives him mad and he does something he will absolutely regret, Kaneki also knows what he has to do to stop him from doing just that.

He reaches back for Katsuki's face to cup it lovingly as well, thumbs gently stroking the skin under his eyes. And without a word, suddenly Kaneki tries to stab Katsuki's eyes with his thumbs. He is sorry, but Katsuki will heal - and this will also give Kaneki a chance to escape the other's hands and the kagune ]

[If it weren't for the awful, relentless voices in his head, telling him to bite Ken and treating him like a meal, this moment might have been sweet. His gaze softens, and he starts to pull Ken closer-

Pain. Blinding, white-hot pain.]

FUCK!

[Katsuki howls in outrage in agony, blinded and unable to see as blood trickles down his cheeks. Maybe a part of him knew what Ken was doing and wanted him to do it, wanted him to escape, but his instincts and hunger overpower that as his kagune starts whipping around, trying to find Ken as his eyes heal.]

Ken-chi. That was brutal. I'm impressed.

[No, no no no-]

Run. Get the hell out-

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[ he really is sorry, the thought of hurting his lover is terrible to him. But right now Kaneki's past trauma is surfacing and he needs to survive and that's all he knows.

With Katsuki blind and even though the kagune is trashing around, Kaneki has the chance to do his next move: grab food. He never told or showed his lover such, but their whole house has ghoul food hiding everywhere: under the wooden floor, behind the furniture, in a far corner of the cupboard. Kaneki ensured that if he ever lost control he would have a way to regain it.

And so he runs to a cupboard to grab a piece of meat wrapped in paper, and Kaneki throws it at Katsuki. Hopefully the smell will be stronger than his own and that will keep Katsuki's attention]

[He'd rather Ken hurt him temporarily than eat Ken permanently. Even though he screams and lashes out at thin air like a blind animal. The pain is excruciating. It hurts.

But even now, he can start to see light, gray blobs that have no distinguishable shape, and he can hear Ken moving.]

Are you stupid?! I told you to r-

[He stops, completely still, eyes wide. The scent of meat hits his senses immediately, right there, right in front of him. It smells so fucking good and it's within his reach, overwhelming his desire to go after Ken. He doesn't need to see it to reach for the meat and he grabs it and tears into it with his teeth without hesitation, even though a part of him knows what it is, he doesn't care because this person has already been dead and it's not Ken.

Flavor bursts into his mouth, satiating his hunger as he bites in again, humming in pleasure. By now, his eyes have healed enough to make out where Ken is, even if some of the details are blurry, but he keeps eating the meat until he's finished, and it's only then that he's fully hit with what he almost did to the person he loves. The fact hurts far more than any attack to his eyes could and he looks down in horror.]

Ken- I...

[ Kaneki doesn't wait for Katsuki to finish eating, and instead rushes for the cupboard under the stairs to grab another package he kept there and throw it at Katsuki as well. Even if the other fights it, Ken is certain he will want more because that's always something that exists within them.

A permanent hunger.

Kaneki waits there, sitting in the floor while trying to control hsi breathing, waiting to see if his lover finally breaks out of his maniac state. He is out of it after the first package but Kaneki doesn't move yet]

Eat the rest. [ he has to. Kaneki always fought it, always avoided eating too much, but he knows how ghoul starvation is like. He knows what Katsuki had is simply not enough and he has to eat more or he will flip out again soon enough .]

[Katsuki's words die in his mouth when he hears Ken's command. He stares at the second package like he can't fully grasp what's happening right now. His kagune has retreated, but his sclera is still black as he licks his lips, practically salivating in front of the meat.

He doesn't want to, but he does. He has to, because he's still hungry and it's better than the alternative. He takes the package and opens it, lifting it up to his mouth and takes a bite. It still tastes like the best thing ever. Did this really use to be part of a person? He has a hard time accepting that.

But he can smell the similarities, even if there are differences between the meat in his hands and the human watching him carefully. He devours the meal as if it's the first thing he's had to eat in weeks.]

[ Kaneki waits for Katsuki to be done, watching him in silence. He still doesn't say anything and doesn't move from his spot, but once the other is finished he finally sighs and gets up to approach Katsuki.

He knows his eyes are healed by now, but Kaneki still takes a look and...

After he punches Katsuki.

It won't hurt Katsuki, and it will actually hurt Kaneki's hand because... Well, ghouls are extremely sturdy. But Kaneki is making a point with this.]

You wanted to reverse our roles?!

[Katsuki notices Ken moving in his peripherals, but he refuses to look at him at first, staring at the floor in shame-

The act of the punch is more shocking than anything. He didn't feel any pain, but it gets him to look at him in surprise, though...yeah, he probably should have expected him to be angry.

He's still trying to come to terms with the fact that he tried to eat Ken, but this is important too. After all, that's why he lost control. He scrubs a hand through his hair and looks at the floor before meeting his eyes.]

I wanted you to be able to eat without fear or guilt. I didn't think- I didn't think about what would happen.

[ of course he is angry. Pissed! Kaneki already knows katsuki is always ready to show him he accepts all of him, but something like this is... far too much! There has to be a limit to how much Katsuki accepts kaneki's nature and becoming a ghoul is certain NOT how to go about it.

When he hears the explanation, Kaneki's frown deepened into a scowl, before he closes his eyes to take a deep breath. He clenches his fist to try to calm himself down before Ken releases a deep sigh. ] I never asked for that.

[ he knows Katsuki didn't take the wish making real. But in a world where magic is real, things like that can't be taken so lightly ]

It's not real. It was grown with magic. [ the food Kaneki has around the house. Bodies are cremated, thus Kaneki can't really eat actual humans here - he has been eating human flesh grown with magic. It's technically still human flesh, it just never belonged to anyone. ] You didn't eat a person.

[He understands why Ken is angry- Katsuki is angry too, at himself. He shouldn't have been so stupid. He shouldn't have worded it that way, hell he shouldn't have done it at all, even if he didn't take it seriously and believe it was real, Ken was affected by it. His heart sinks and he folds his arms, his eye going back to normal as if he's just a (relatively) normal human.]

I know you didn't. Ken- I'm sorry. I should never have made that stupid wish. [Katsuki only apologizes when it's something serious, and this definitely fits. He's pissed about what he did.

His head snaps up and he hates the sense of relief that flows through his body. Maybe he didn't eat a real person, but-]

But I tried to eat you.

[And he's scared he'll try again.]

[ kaneki knows Katsuki doesn't usually apologize, he is well aware of that. So he knows the other IS sorry and he IS taking this seriously but... he has always tried so hard to keep katsuki away from the true Ghoul reality for a reason. he never wanted him to learn all of it, he never wanted him to understand it all because of how horrible it really and truly is.

And then he becomes a ghoul.

it feels like a sick joke.

When he hears Katsuki, he finally looks at the other and his expression softens. ] I have done the same to you, before. [ and to Hide. It's something he had to live with and now Katsuki does too. And many people have tried to eat Kaneki, starting with Rize, Tsukiyama, all the way to the whole ghoul restaurant... it's something Kaneki also lives with.

That's the ghoul existence. ]