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⌛ Who: Xufeng, open to Four Seasons Manor
⌛ What: Flailing over sudden canon update!
⌛ When: October 9thish
⌛ Where: Four Seasons Manor
⌛ Warnings: TRAUMA and BLOOD and brother talks andandand anything else will be added to thread headers

Early Morning
Dreams seem to plague Xufeng this night. He can't say if they're memories, caused by growing close to Jinmi or...something else entirely. He simply doesn't know.

Only that he jerks upright when he wakes, gasping for breath before pitching over to the side to spit out blood as suddenly his entire body seems to ache. Unpleasantly so until it ebbs into a dull pain that won't stop. So he shoves himself to his feet, pausing to stare at his own wings before shaking himself and stumbling out to the gardens of the Manor.

He absently wipes at the blood at his mouth before taking a seat beside the pool the lord of the manor has here. Memories seep in and he presses his eyes firmly shut as he focuses on everything he can figure out. He rests his head against a hand, rubbing at the ache to it.

Later
Not a joke, or a deception. He's had enough time to figure that much out. But to put it all together with what he's experienced here? That is taking longer, and the headache hasn't really eased. He's just stubbornly decided to ignore it. Only those who really know him would see the slight hints of discomfort. How his wings occasionally twitch for apparently no reason. How his temper is a little sharper than usual. How he's even quieter than before.

How much time he actually spends by the pond, rather than his rooms or the training yard.

How he feels older, and a little weaker, to those with that sense of his energies. More weary, but also, at the same time happier.

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He lets the silence stretch as long as his brother wants it to. His eyes close at hearing the depth of emotion.

"I should finally meet them." He has the thought to offer to help search, simply because of how big his brother's task will be in finding his loves again.

His brother should be happy. Yes, Runyu had done a great deal of evil. But Xufeng isn't completely blameless either.

But he also understands the need to search on his own.

"I'm amazed you haven't yet. They live at the Manor with me."

The three of them had shared those rooms together for months now. His brother's rooms were even rather close to his own. Maybe circumstances just hadn't aligned properly for whatever reason. It wasn't clear to him and he knew he probably wasn't meant to understand it fully.

"It will be easy to know it's them. As you know, they both have one of my scales. And they both wear them every day."

"Accidental misses?" He offers. "I will make more of an effort now."

He hasn't purposely avoided them so much as he's kept mostly to himself in general.

"Good." He means it, and a smile just helps to show it. He's glad the two his brother has chosen to give scales to, value him and them enough to wear them.

"Please don't fault them if they initially are not so pleased with you. They're very protective of me and living these past few months with you and Mi'er not knowing has been...challenging for me."

Utter torture really. But he didn't want to elaborate on that. He wasn't here to make Xufeng feel bad about something that hadn't been in his control. He didn't fault him for the magics of this place at all.

"They'll warm up to you. I promise. They just need to know you mean me no harm. That we're...working on things. Together."

Xufeng moves to pat his brother on the shoulder, then hesitates and lets the hand drop back. No. Not quite there yet.

Instead he nods and a smile does manage to settle easier on his lips. "They are important to you, as you are to them. It is good they are protective of you. I will not harm them."

He can guess how hard it's been, having to hold so much in. A breath huffs out, more amused now. "They'll see. I won't harm you either." He already knows Runyu won't hurt him, even now that he remembers it all.

"I know you won't. You're a far better man than I ever could be."

Xufeng probably would have suited the throne better too. Not for the reasons that the Empress had implied but just for who he was at his core. Runyu didn't bring that up though because none of that mattered anymore when his brother would never take the throne no matter who begged it of him.

"...I'm honestly grateful you're here, Xufeng. Truly I am."

He gives his brother a wry look. He'd always tried to be a good person. But he'd willingly joined the Demon family - the reasons behind doing so aren't as important now.

"You're trying to do better now," he says instead, after a long moment. And they both know he had no interest in being the Heavenly Emperor. He'd always hoped Runyu would take that place, and not just because of being their father's first born.

Those last words sink in and it feels right to unbend and lean in to embrace his brother.

"I am too, Runyu."

At first he didn't know how to react to the embrace. It wasn't that he didn't want it but he knew where they were from and all that they'd been through. But soon his arms were lifting to wrap around his brother, his face burying against his shoulder as silent tears fell.

He'd needed this so badly. There were no words to describe how badly he'd needed this moment with his brother.

He knows. So he doesn't let go. He gives his brother time to figure out how to respond. Then he feels arms curl around him and he rests his cheek against his brother's head, though he's careful about the horns.

No weapons. No angry words. Just cautious hope that their bond can somehow recover despite everything.

He didn't know how long he let himself cling to his brother. It didn't really matter in the end. Being able to let out all the pain and relief with someone who knew so much of what they'd endured meant the world to him. Runyu cried the entire time as well, easily soaking Xufeng's shoulder by the time the silent sobs were done.

Then he went still, just letting himself take in the moment. "I've missed you. So much," he whispered finally.

Xufeng doesn't think about it as he starts slowly rocking his brother. And the silent sobs will never be mentioned. It doesn't matter that his shoulder is soaked through, just that finally he can be there for his brother.

Even when he feels Runyu go still, he doesn't let go. His hold is loose enough that his brother can simply pull away when he's ready. Until then? They both need this. His eyes squeeze closed at the quiet words and he lets go of what lingering pain he can. But really, he'd been angrier with himself than Runyu.

"I'm here."

Two simple words but they were so perfect. They were everything he needed anymore. Truly he'd never fully appreciated how much he needed his little brother. Not before everything and not after. It wasn't until this moment he truly understood how deep those feelings ran.

Finally he was able to pull back, fingers cleaning his face since he was sure he was a mess.

"I'm here too, Xufeng."

He can't quite resist the little chuckle at the state his brother's in, and summons a wet towel to help clean Runyu's face a bit. He's gentle with his help, patting skin and scales carefully.

The smile he manages now is more relaxed at the answer.

"I am glad to have my brother here."

"Still fussing over me..."

He gave a soft laugh but let Xufeng tend to him. It was like years ago when his brother would be so quick to offer him healing. Something he always appreciated. He missed those days and it was nice to have a taste of it again.

"Yes," he says simply, and laughs quietly too.

It's a weight off his shoulders. A nice memory and a thought they really can reclaim some of what they'd once had with each other. Support.

Speaking of memories, Xufeng suddenly chuckles again. "And I'll still peck at anyone who looks at you wrong."

"You're ridiculous."

But wasn't that something he'd always loved about him? How silly he was? He knew he very much appreciated it now as they spoke and Xufeng finished cleaning his face off. He certainly was noticing the care taken with his scales and he was grateful for it.

"I'm not ready tonight. But please come to me soon so I can tell you about my mother and what happened with her. I really feel you should finally know."

Xufeng grins as he finishes fussing over his brother, even making sure any strand of hair that had been mussed is tucked back into place before pulling away.

The grin fades though and he studies Runyu thoughtfully. "I will listen." Because his brother wants to tell him. And he would like to know, too. He's only not pushed before because...mothers. And then everything else had spiraled horribly.

He nodded. Not tonight though. He wasn't sure he could handle it right now. But he was grateful that Xufeng had agreed and would come to find him another day. They should probably talk about a great deal together. Perhaps about even more than just that situation.

But tonight he was content to just be with his brother again.

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