jikan_rpg | Kim vs Feelings Round One- Open

Entry tags:

Kim vs Feelings Round One- Open

⌛ Who: Kim Theerapanyakun and various
⌛ What: FEELS and drinking
⌛ When: Following Will and Riley's wedding/b day party for Kinn
⌛ Where: Mostly the Hotel but drunken Kim might wonder
⌛ Warnings: Posted as needed.

Riley waking up had been a very much needed relief for Kim, even though he hadn't been like Will posted at his side the entire time he had slept Kim worried, about Riley and Will both. Their wedding had been nice and so was the party that followed, not that Kim stayed to the end of it having made a bee line with a bottle of booze to his room just before midnight.

When the following day came, leaving the room just seemed like the last thing he wanted to do. Not due to a hang over, but more because he hadn't sobered up and had no real intention of doing so. He had no idea what the hell he was doing, he just knew that he felt something that wasn't there before and he had no idea what to do with this. He knew his track record and he knew what a monster he really was. Probably second to only his father as far as the family went.

Yeah, just staying in his room and drinking himself stupid sounded like an awesome plan.

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

He was sort of awake, sort of half drifting in the sea of booze he'd tanked in the last 12 hours or so.

He looked toward the door at the sound of Will's voice, and scrambled to get up. Not dressed at all except for the boxer shorts. Kim looked rough to say the least and so did the room.

" Will! I'm com--" words were cut off as there was the sound of a thud and a crash of dishes? Falling to the floor and making more of a mess since he'd not touched the food on the dishes. If Will ever wanted to know what he himself might look like sprawled belly down in his boxers on the floor with fried rice specking his hair, now was the chance.

Okay, that crash was concerning enough for Will to barge in without waiting. If he hadn't been so worried, the sight would've been comical. He dropped the bag of candy he brought on the nearest surface and rushed to Kim's side to make sure he hadn't injured himself.

"Are you okay?"

Defeated by gravity he sighed heavily and just let his head thunk onto the floor too. He shook his head still face down on the floor.

" No." it was simple and to the point. " I just wanted to hold you a while." he's pretty wasted by the smell of the whiskey coming off him. " Now, I am all ricey."

Will pressed his lips together and sighed gently. He could smell the alcohol in the room. Kim must have been really upset to drink so much. In the back of his mind, he wondered if it was because him and Riley got married... He reached out to help Kim sit up and gave him a serious once over to make sure he hadn't been obviously injured in his fall.

"Want a bath? I can wash your hair for you."

He brought his head up brushing the rice out of his hair at least most of it, Will would e able to see that his eyes were red and swollen. He had worked himself into quite the lather off and on over the hours.

there was a dry half laugh from him. " I am too fucked up right now, I would be more of a chore than I want you to have to deal with." He would need a good bath later though that was for sure.

He looked to Will, lovely Will, with one of the biggest warmest hearts he'd ever seen. That worry etched over his beautiful face, that worry that didn't belong there tainting that smile of his. Kim frowned rather deeply " No." his hands waving side to side " No, you don't deserve to worry about me like that. You deserve to be happy and enjoying your new chapter of life." he went on before his head hit the ground again.

" Baby, I am so sorry I just ruin every thing." his voice shaking. " I knew I would do this."

The worry softened, but it was still there. He reached out to pluck a grain of rice from Kim's hair. He could comb it out for him in a little bit. For now, Will wound his arms around Kim's shoulders and tugged him close.

"What's ruined? Nothing's ruined... Well, except your meal but we can fix that," he assured softly. Will's hand moved to pet Kim's hair. Yes, he would definitely need to have it combed, but for now, this was fine. Will didn't want to get up and leave Kim all alone.

"What's wrong, Kim? You can tell me."

" I'm not hungry anyway." he said softly against Will's chest. His free hand reaching behind him for that bottle of booze he had.

" Did you know.. Porsche has a younger brother?" he began, not waiting for an answer he went on after popping the lid off the bottle. " I absolutely shattered his heart. Pew into a million pieces." he lifted the bottle to his lips. " Why? Because I am a fucking monster." he said " He was so innocent, and I..I'm covered in blood."

The tears were rimming his eyes as he fixed himself so he could look to Will better. " I'll never be clean, I'll never be pure, not that I ever was. I was trained to kill from the time I could walk. We all were." he held up a finger, slowly he pointed to himself. " I am the worst of all of us. So now, I find myself very much in love with you and Riley, and I.. I don't deserve to feel that. I don't deserve anyone to love me like that either." it was then the tears rolled down his face. " And I don't know what to do, because I want you so much, even if I should tell you both to run." his voice broke there and he was trying to lift that bottle up again.

Will features get serious, almost hard and something unnerving shifts in his eyes showing some degree of his true age. They were dark and old the sort of eyes that have seen centuries and all that time entails. "Nong," he states clearly, in a low voice.

"I am older than everyone in this hotel combined. You think I don't know monsters? You're hardly the worst of anything. If you were, you wouldn't be here drunk and sad about it. Monsters, real monsters, don't care."

And just like that, he gathered Kim into his arms. He pulled him close and kissed his hair over and over. "All that made you who you are and that's who I love, Kim. Riley, too. Shouldn't you let use decide if you're worthy of that or not?"

After everything they had been to one another up to this point, being called nong some how made him want to slither under the bed and take the bottle with him. On the other hand, that low and firm tone he Will had taken, was a bit of a turn on.

" I didn't care when I killed, and to this day I still don't. Not when it is for people I love." he said.

Will taking him in his arms like that, some how it made him cry more. It was warm, and safe and Will. Even with him kissing his hair his shoulders shook softly. "I want to. I really want to, but I don't know if I trust myself. I don't want to hurt you like those people hurt Riley. I don't want to be the reason you are sad. Even if you both are old as time it's self I will always protect you. Always." he looked up to Will his face a mess with tears. " I love you, and I love Riley too. I don't say things like that easily, and I wont take it back."

A long sigh escaped him and though Kim couldn't see it wrapped up in Will's arms as he was, Will's face softened and he looked more like his usual care-free self.

"So take the time you need to learn to trust yourself, but don't cut us out, okay? None of us are perfect and misunderstandings and missteps are bound to happen. But as long as we all talk to each other and are willing to give each other a little grace, everything will be fine."

Will pulled back a little and tipped Kim's chin up so he could look him in the eyes. That same hand thumbed away the tears. It seemed strange to see because what he knew of Kim was his strong, tough exterior. Not that he didn't think Kim was a softy under all that, but ut was just strange to see him sad like this.

"I'll let you in on a little something, okay? Just because we're Fae doesn't mean we're all sunshine and rainbows. There's dark and there's light in people; usually more of one than the other. That's just a fact. And it's not one that scares me or Riley." Will offered him such a warm smile, then pulled him back against his chest so he could cry more if he needed or just rest there a while.

"Oh, my sweet, sweet Kim. You're so worried about us. I don't care about your past other than in the sense that it made you who you are. I feel comfortable saying Riley doesn't care either. If you want to change, change. I you don't, don't. You can absolutely use this weird little place we've found ourselves as a second chance. And if that's what you want, I'll support that. And if it's not? I'll support that, too."

Will's face soft and similar to his own, yet also different too. Sure his mind was some what hazy and he was quite emotional, a side that few ever got to see at all. Kim was always very guarded. People weren't allowed in. To see this soft side of him. Yet, here he was. He trusted in Will, and Riley as well. It was a strange almost alien feeling.

" I want to be clear." well as clear as a drunk person could be. " Just because I don't trust myself, it doesn't mean I don't trust you, because I do. I know it's not been an easy road for you or for Riley, I don't know much about it but I can see it sometimes. this shadow behind your eyes." he nuzzled his face against Will's chest, not prying on the subject. " I just want to see you guys smile. It's like sunshine to my soul. I might be addicted." he said not moving from his spot an inch.

" I promised you that come whatever after Riley woke I would be there. I am here. I am yours if you want me. I will trust in you both to guide me and I will guide you too." It sounded a little more romantic in his head than what came out, but he is trying and he didn't say he was hungry and run away.

That earned a soft smile. Will loosened his suffocating hold just a little and basically beamed. "I'm here for you, Kim. In whatever way you need me. I won't push you for more than you're willing to give."

If Kim needed more time to trust himself with them, so be it. They could start slow. Well... they could slow down since, well, they've already done a lot together. Woops.

" You already have a good portion of me. I just don't want to repeat mistakes and end up..." he paused a moment. " A douche bag? Dick head?" another pause " A bad man." he settled on.

He regretted nothing and honestly he would fall right back into bed with either or both of them at any time. He was still trying to figure out if it was the feelings he felt or some kind of witchery they had but he was very attracted to the two of them.

There was some sort of goofy laugh from him. " I am totally your boyfriend now."

Will giggled in turn and hugged Kim close once again, but only for a moment. Then he leaned back enough to catch Kim's eyes. His own were happy -- he got a new husband and a new boyfriend in a matter of days! He pressed a hand to Kim's cheek and leaned in close to steal a quick kiss.

"Mistakes happen. We all make them, so try not to worry too much about that. Now," he said more decisively. "Why don't you sit here for a second while I go find a comb to get the rice out of your hair, hm?"

He was happy too, even if under normal circumstances he didn't show it as outwardly as Riley and Will do. He was really happy. They were growing as partners in their own ways. When Kim sobered up he would whole heartedly congratulate his two boyfriends on their union.

" Oh, rice is still every where." he said picking through his hair a bit. there was another laugh from him. " I am going to smell like my granny's kitchen."

"Don't you worry. We'll get you a bath." Eventually. When Kim sobered up a little and wasn't in any immediate danger of passing out in the bathtub!

For now, he pats Kim's leg and gets up to go search his bathroom for a comb. Even if Will thought he looked kind of cute with the rice all over him, he wanted to be helpful in cleaning his new boyfriend up. It was the least he could do since he's pretty sure Kin tripped and fell into said rice trying to answer Will's knock at the door.

He's back a moment later and settling himself on the floor. "Okay, come sit here in front of me and I'll take care of you, okay?"

Passing out drunk in a bathtub if not resulting in a really dumb way to drown also would result in really pruney feet. No one wants prune feet. No one. though with those thoughts running loose in his brain and the booze he was currently imagining what it would look like if his feet turned in to prunes.

Fortunately for his minds eye Will's voice broke that train of thought. He moved and rather than sitting it was more a half flop onto the floor in front of Will. People didn't do this sort of thing for him. More times than not it was because he would growl and hiss at them messing with him in this way, Will was different though. He was allowed.

Thank you! Will doesn't like being pruney either!

He settled behind Kim, stretching his legs out on either side of him. First, he combs his fingers through Kim' hair a few times, loosening some of the rice. Then he actually starts in with he comb, gently raking it through his hair, careful not to tug any knots or stubbornly sticking rice.

"Your hair is nice."

Kim was not very helpful in this venture his head luling here and there. There was another chuckle. " It's covered in rice, and I think I got some booze in it too. Probably not at all nice, but thank you for saying so anyway." he said turning his head to look to Will over his shoulder.

" Thank you for loving me anyway."

Will chuckles softly. It's true, there's a lot going on Kim's hair right now, but that doesn't make it any less nice to Will. It's soft and thick, which makes him comb more carefully so he doesn't tug on anything too hard.

"You don't have to thank me for that."

" Of course I do. " He was so used to having to earn someones love. Or just watching people toss it around so casually. Fair weather friends, the whole gig. To have Will right here when he was at his lowest was something he would be thankful for.

Oh, he had earned it. Earned it by being himself. But he's sure that's not the sort of thing Kim would've meant if he's uttered that thought aloud.

"I'll be here for you as long as you want me to be, Kim. That's a promise."

He was quiet a moment and lowered his head. His hand moving to rest on Will's knee.

" Forever." once he was sober again he in no way would be as outgoing as he had been with this tonight.

Ah, humans said that word so easily without any real concept of how long it was. Nothing survived forever, not even this sweet little planet of theirs would last that long. But Will's not in the habit of correcting other people's romantic gestures.

Instead he chuckled softly and nodded. "If you're certain," he teased quietly.

Forever is subjective, and right now that was how he felt. He was aware that they were from different worlds, but that was a worry for tomorrow.

" How could I not be?" he said leaning his head to the side to peer at Will.

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject